It's Been Awhile Baby & I miss You  / Mommy
My Dearest Zack

It's been a while since I've last written to you & so much has gone on. Your daddy & I are no longer married we got divorced it was finalized November 3rd 2009. I know you have watched over so I don't have to go into detail about what all went on. But Zack mommy loves & misses you so much. My Heart & Soul is still here with me :) & I do smile more than I used to. Your sisters are having a hard time Sammy is getting into trouble at school where Toni is treating me like major crap at home. I will get to your site more often Baby & will get around to fixing your site back up. Your daddy had taken my computer & messed it up as well as other things that went wrong. No one is perfect & as I say Perfection Belongs To The Angels & I'm Not 1 so I know I'm not perfect either. We all make mistakes & learn by them. I am still dealing with my problems but I'm taking it one day @ a time. With Love & Support I know I can conquer & over come all things. Well Mommy's Angel Baby Boy Zack I'm going to close for now & will write more to you later. Sending you loads of hugs kisses & Eternal Love from your Mommy. Please continue to send Butterfly kisses & watch over us all & Mommy's Heart & Soul also. Close

Thinking of You As I Always Do  / Mommy Who Miss's U.
My Dearest Zack,
This am I had to go for a ct scan cause still having complications from my full hysterectomy . No fun Mommy is in a lot of pain had to go to the ER Sunday night cause i was bleeding, could not feel my legs & then came the excruciating pain front & back. The doctor has no clue what is wrong but agrees that my pain is bad as my Blood Pressure & health shows it's bad cause the tests they have done on me shows it. He's talking bout having to send me to another surgeon. I'm worse then I was before I had it done now. So I lost all chances of ever having kids again, I'm depressed, I MISS YOU Zack. I'm so lost I just don't know any more. Not many do I share my feelings with any more I have closed myself up once again. There is maybe 3 or 4 people that I tell anything to. One I will always share with Zack besides you Baby as You are My Angel Above That HOLDS MOMMY'S HEART IN HIS TINY HANDS. There are so many days I just want a rock to hide  under & not ever have to crawl out from under. I told some one very close & dear to me that the world truly would not miss me if I was to go, it would still go on. There are days I get to feeling really low Zack & it's so not like me to be that way but I have reached it once again & I'm fighting so hard to win this sad battle Zack. Mommy comes to you to write cause my heart just pours out no matter what I hold nothing back. I know it tends to turn into books & everyone ends up reading this but this is to YOU ZACK. Bond between Mother & Child NEVER ENDS it just grows & strengthens still Zack my Angel Baby. I'm still pouring my heart into every thing I do all the way never been the type of person to be half butted & never will be. I was told i needed to take my heart of things but it's not me & never will be me Zack. It's like I'm torn & only people really close to me see this & know why yet I'm not telling people why. Zack you know why Baby & see it all okay My Baby Angel Who Soars Above The Clouds Mommy is gonna close this up. I Love You for ALL of Eternity & BEYOND as I send You Hugs Kisses & Loads Of My Love For Always Baby Zack. Please give My love to the other Angels also Baby Zack please & thank you My Angel. Love Mommy Maggie Close

Thinking of You & Missing You Zack  / Mommy

My Dearest Zack Attack,

It's been a lil bit since I've written to you baby. Mommy has since had to have a full hysterectomy & it's not been that easy Baby to be honest. I tell every one I'm fine but really I'm crying inside. I Miss You so Much Zack & I have also lost the chance to ever have kids ever again. I know that I wouldn't be able to but I don't know it still hurts so much. I'm sittin here cryin right now as I'm typing to you Zack. You are My Angel Zack God sent to me to Hold for a very short time. I have You to Cherish In My Heart N my Life for all of Eternity & BeYond Baby but god it still hurts so darn much the tears still stream down cause I'm missing out on so much with You Zack. Mommy has hit a depression streak again not only am I in pain for the surgery & over the Loss of You Zack but I'm depressed Baby & I haven't told any one cause they have enough to deal with not needing me to add more to their problems. I am dealing with it Baby it's ok I just cry when I'm by myself & no one is around. I am napping alot cause my pain is so intense since my surgery on the 11th of September the Dr. is trying to say that scar tissue has already built up but there is no way it did this fast. I am having complications & problems from it & it was done laser which is suppose to be better & faster recovery. Well not in my case I don't understand why but I guess these are things that will always elude me. I have my true Love  in my life & that helps alot & that I'm very thankful for.  I have alot more support then I did 3 years ago Baby & Mommy has come along way the nite mares have become seldom I do have occasional ones but not every day & every nite as I used to. I have so much to be thankful for Zack. Yet You my Angel know how I feel & what Momy is saying. Zack Momy is gonna close this so it doesn't turn into a book but please watch over Us all & Every one In Mommy's Life &  Give All the Angels Hugs & Kisses From Me & I Send You Loads of HUGS & KISSES & INFINITY OF LOVE Baby for All of Etenity I Miss You so Much Zack. You Have Attacked My Heart My Zack Attack & Will Forever Hold It In Your Tiny Hands As The Bond Of Mother & Child Will Never End.

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zack / Larry Voss
I feel like i have known you all my life little man.  You were not on this earth long ...but you touched many hearts ... and  you continue to do so....sleep well Zack Attack....one day we will meet... xoxo Close

to zack my first little angel i have got to know  / Josie Crochet (friend)

to our zack,

i was never lucky enough to have met u. but know that i love u n ur brother n sisters like u were mine. ur nonny nisses u alot sweetie actually so do i as i have got to know u hrough ur mommy.the world is a funny tough place to b n when ur mommy is really down thinking of u hepls her alotas u really r her darlin little angle boy. love u little man give ur gams n family hugs n kisses from us, love u n gn for now.   love ur aunty josie

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For My Angel Your Birthday Is Fast Approaching  / Mommy Who's Thinkin Of U. As Always
My Dearest Zack,
So hard to believe that ur birthday is in a week @ a day it's been 3 years my how the years pass Baby. My heart sings yet it's also sad @ the same time. I woke up the other day had a nitemare been a while since I've had one. Ended up being up for 22 and a half hours made sure I was exhuasted & had no chance for dreams to happen. The dates are fast approaching & it's like every thing if so fresh & the pain gets intense yet I hold it in. Mommy has to be strong & I know this. You are so Loved Baby & Missed. I share you with so many but Many those I hold Close to My Heart really get to Know You Baby. Brought a special one to you today cause I needed to he's heard alot bout you & has seen the special avatar I made for Your Birthday & I'm gonna use it in my yahoo & while dj'in the whole week. My Heart is so torn Angel. I feel some one blames me yet won't tell me but the actions say it. I deal daily & know life goes on & I'm livin life day by day & making the best of all. Your older siblings Love You so much & they miss y6ou also. Zack You are In All 4 Of Our Hearts 4Life Baby & One Day We Will All Reunite. It's been so Long since I have been  here & written to  you & i needed to cause my Heart just misses You more then I could ever say. The 21st On Your Birthday we WILL do Your Balloon release as Always Angel & Celebrate Your Life. There is so many that Don't remember Your Life & that hurts let alone acknowledge Your Life & I want to smack the crap out of them but screw them they mean nothing. Mention Your Name it's not the tears from Mentioning You It's the Joy it Brings that causes the Tears I Need 2 Hear Your Name Mentioned. I need to know You are Remembered that others do care. You made a Huge impact In my Life & will for EVER. Well My Angel Zack Attack You have Attacked My Heart @ birth & Attacked it the day God called You Home as You Hold it in Your tiny hands but Mommy has a HUGE Heart & is Full of Love. I better close before I'm in tears. Sending You Eternal Hugs Kisses & LOVE always Baby Zack & please give the other Angels my Love also. Roses & Butterfly Kisses Baby Boy Mommy Loves You. There Will Be a Grand Party In Heaven I know with Grams & Daddy (your great grams & grandpa). Close

Missing You So Much Today  / Mommy Who Should Be Celebrating But Feels So SAD
My Dearest Zack,
Today is my 30th Bday & all i wanna do is cry. So many reasons & not really sure exactly why. I have gave my heart to people I get really close to & find out all was centered on lies. I know another reason as soon as I was old enough to understand my ma told me when I was born which took 3 & 1/2 days to deliver me as I was also born with my cord wrapped around my neck. I used to pray to God that never happened to me & yet it did with you My Baby Angel Boy Zack. How can things be so different today as it was when I was born. I'm sitting here reflecting on my Life & I know I'd never change the fact I had You Baby but it's try my hardest to change the outcome of what's happened. It's so sad to be surrounded by a lot of people & feel so Lonely Baby. My Heart has been hurt so much & lately it's only gotten worse to be shut out of people you care so much & they treat you as you matter not Hurts. A lot of things center around the Fact My Angel is gone physically from me & that Hurts the Most. Well Mommy will close up for now & type more later on I Love You Zack Eternal Hugs & Kisses. Close

Thinking Of You Always Baby  / Mommy Who's Heart Is Still Crying Out For U. Angel
My Dearest Zack,

Not a day or second goes by that U aren't on my mind. I Miss You so much & I know U are surrounded by Lots of Angels & Love. But see I still have that longing for U in my arms still. I still have the anger for the injustice done to U & Us Ur family. Was told Ur Grandma in Florida isn't well baby. Won't be longer before she's up there with U & my Daddy. Losing U wasn't suppose to happen baby U were suppose to out Live me & instead it's the other way around. It's so hard when I come to Ur site cause I just wanna cry, yet it's hard when Ur older siblings are around My Angel. Okay Mommy will have to come back & finish this later I Love You With All Of My Heart Baby.

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your little angel  / Chezzy (mommys friend )
For you Maggs and your beautiful family..
no, i have no words to offer you
i cant put my arms around you
i cant dry tears that will always fall
but i offer you my friendship
im so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy


 thinking of you all

all my love 

chezzy

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Angel Baby Asks permission to bring Mommy flowers  / SHAYE Creamer ^i^ Mack's Mom~ Love You (Angels in Heaven )

Angel Baby Asks Permission to bring Mommy flowers!


Reach High Angel baby & Release your Doves...


Little Angel Baby Learns to Blow Kisses in the sky!!!
Search for signs from Above, quick as a wink and in blink of an eye,
You'll See the Angel you Cherish and love.. winds change as he moves through sky..  

remembering and wishing you peace and comfort..

Always, Shaye, Mack's Mom Forever
www.kenneth-creamer.memory-of.com 
"Death does not end a Love/relationship,
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Blessing you on your 2nd Angelversary in Heaven  / SHAYE Creamer ^i^ Mack's Mom~ Love You (Angels in Heaven )


Beautiful Baby Zack 2 years In Heaven with the Angels...
Wiahing you a day filled with peace, comfort, love and 
many a sign from your beautiful baby Angel..

Keeping you forever in my heart, thoughts, and prayers..
God Bless you.

Always, Shaye, Mack's Mom Forever
www.kenneth-creamer.memory-of.com 
"Death does not end a Love/relationship, 
Just how we communicate."
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Happy angel Birthday Zack  / Leo McPhee Mom

In a baby castle just beyond my eye,
My baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who am I to wish him back into this world of strife?
No, play on my baby, you have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes my eyes,
I'll hear her tiny footsteps come running to my side.
Her little hands caress me so tenderly and sweet,
I'll breathe a prayer and close my eyes,
and embrace her in my sleep.
Now I have a treasure that I rate above all other.
I have known true glory; I am STILL his mother

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Thinking Of You My Angel Baby Boy  / Mommy Who's Heart Is So Broken &. Missin U.
My Dearest Zack Attack,

I Love & Miss You More then wards could ever express or say. Thinking of you my Love You are My Angel Baby Boy who Soars above. I know you are always with me yet it's don't help spiritualy. I try so hard to pass my time yet I don't let other's know how I'm really feeling My Angel Baby. You are still my ray of sunshine & mean the world to me & always will My Angel. Well coming up on your Angel Date in 7 days . Can't believe it's already been 2 years the 26th. I want you back here Zack so darn bad Baby. I wish I could go back to that Morning & make sure i never Lost You. I hurt so darn bad why is life so unfair Baby? Why did God need You more then I did? These answers I know I'll never know but wish I knew them. I tried to be with You a few weeks ago Baby. I just want to be able to hold You again as I got to for the 5 short weeks & 1 day I was graced with You In My Life. As I'm writing You I'm streaming on the radio station I dj on Baby & I'm playing Your Dedi set as I miss You more then I can really tell any 1. If it wasn't for Your Older siblings I'd so be with You My Angel Baby Boy. I should of never fell asleep that morning. I should of stayed awake cause then maybe just maybe I'd have You here with me still. I keep watching Your Older siblings grow up & I know I'm missing these things with You. This Hurts & makes me cry. I can't tell Your Daddy how I feel. I failed at protecting You My Angel Baby Boy Zack. I still feel the same You Attacked My Heart When You entered the World & You Attacked it & took Most of My Heart to Heaven with You. I Love You & Your Older Siblings all the Same but Baby You gave Me that extra push to keep going on In Life. I wanted to leave before I found out I was pregnant with You & then I found out & was so happy as I had My reason to keep going on. Then that dreadful day came & You left me & I have not been the same ever since & I never will be again. Life is so frigging unkind & unfair darn it WHY! God could of taken me as I have lived my life to it's fullest. He could of left You Be & Taken me. These I know I'll never know Why yet I constantly deal with daily & nightly. I still can't sleep i relive You leaving Me over & over again. I want You back so bad it's not funny yet I know it won't change any thing. As Your passing was perminate & I won't be able to see you till I go to Heaven myself. Well Daddy is saying it's bed time & since it's 5:30am I guess I should try to sleep. I Love You & Miss You & sending My Love to You Baby & please give the Other Angel's Mommy's Love & hugs & kisses also. Baby Lots of Mommy's Hugs & Kisses to You Always & 4Ever Baby.Sweet Dreams Baby see You In My Dreams. Love Your Mommy Margaret Ann Moore
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Sending Love on your Birthday  / Jenny Tavendale Mum To Ross

Happy heavenly birthday
dearest Zac stay close to your 
prcious family and send them
lots of special 'Angel Hugs'

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRECIOUS ANGEL  / Rose McPhee Leo's Mom

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Happy Birthday Precious Angel Zack  / Susie/Scott's Mom
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Zack Your Momma is the best and she loves You!  / Roxanne Sikes (friend of Maggie )

Zack:
I feel I must let you know that Your Momma is the best and she loves YOU! My heart aches for her.
I wish we could talk but she is not ready. I know she loves you and misses you like I miss mine, but I just felt the need to tell YOU that SHE LOVES YOU!
Thanks for taking care of mine and letting me tell you. Hugz to all.

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Thinking of You & Wishing You Were here  / Mommy Who's Heart Is So Broken Over U. Bing Gone Love &. Miss You So Very Much It Hurts
My Dearest Angel Baby Zack,

Today is a total off day for me. I have been going through the garage & came across a lot of the baby stuff I have. Then I came across the stuff from the hospital the day I had You. All I wanna do is cry baby. I Love & Miss You so Darn much it hurts like heck. I feel like an empty shell drifting through my days. Nothing is ever complete or the same or right. I live & breathe but not sure I really am sorta thing. Today Jr has been so stuck on You Baby. Everything is around You. I have been trying to hold bk the tears yet it's so hard to do. My Love For You Is Eternal baby Zack. You Have Attacked My heart in so many ways & I have been thinking of so much. My mind won't stop it just keeps going with no outlet or nothing to quiet it down. Zack the day You left me to be with God my world changed for ever. It's coming up on Your 2 Year Anniversaries & I just wanna give up Baby. This year has only been getting hard as every day & month goes by. I know I have to wait for God to call me home to be with You again & that hurts so bad. You are still my ray of sunshine. You pulled me from my Darkness when I had You & yet since You are gone I am in a huge total Darkness without a Bright side again. I Love Your 3 older Siblings the same as I  Love You Yet I Lost You & Couldn't Protect You So You Are Now Gone. Life sucks & is so frigging unfair. Still to this day I'm not sure  why God decided he needed You more then I did. I guess I'm Still really selfish on that area. I want You Back Here In My Arms Where You  Belong. I dreamt of You Last nite yet it didn't make me feel any better. Zack Baby I know You are M Guardian Angel but I want You Back with me Breathing again. Darn it Life is so flipping unfair. Ok Baby Mommy has written You a book & I will be back again cause I miss You Like Crazy. Hugs & Kisses & lots of My Love Forever & Ever.
Margaret Your Mommy
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Thinking of U as Always My Angel Baby Boy Zack  / Mommy Who Luvs &. Misses U. So Much My Heart Is Still Broken &. Hurting
My Dearest Zack Attack,

I miss you more then ever & ur anniversaries are coming up & they r really weighing on me Baby. I still can't sleep until late & get bk up early & u r always on my mind Baby. Mommy has a friend staying with us Baby & i'm  gonna take him to see you soon. Well can't write much right now as i'm ready to pass out. I Love You & Miss U so darn much Baby. Sweet Dreams Love you lots & lots & lots my Angel Baby boy. Hugs & kisses & plz give all the other Angels with u my love & hugs Y& kisses. Go cuddle with ur Grandpa M. & tell him i said happy father's day & i miss him lots too. Ok Baby mommy's closing this as i can't keep my eye's open ne longer. Close

Thinking of U as Always & Missing U More Then Ever  / Mommy Who Loves &. Misses U. So So SO Much My Heart Is Broken
My Dearest Zack,
I Love U & Miss U more everyday. I Know how these Families feel that just lost their children & I hurt with them all. My Heart Breaks every time I wake up knowing U'r not here with me physically. I am trying to b so strong my Angel but Mommy is torn up & Hurting. My Heart is shattered into so many little pieces & not gonna go into detail as to why. I know U already know. I Hurt so much Zack, I have been visiting U lately but today is just an ultimate Low for me. I'm not gonna lean on any one though. I need to B there for other's who need to lean on me. Ur Siblings remember U Zack & talk about U alot. I have lite a candle for David's Daughter & all the other Victims & Jr came up to me & said Mommy that reminds me of Zack. I lite a candle for U Baby & will continue to till my days on earth r out numbered. Zack I need U to do Mommy a huge favor & watch over all my Friends & their Angels up there with U. Give them lots of Love & HUgs & Kisses & let them know it's from Ur Mommy. I haven't been here lately & Baby it's still really hard for me. I'm sitting here crying my eyes out as I type to U right now. I got a flask bk from a friend on the radio staion I DJ on on the net here @ www.stonerradio.net I know she didn't mean to but it set me off into this Funk mood & I can't stop crying. I Play Ur Song everynight I DJ i feel closer to U every time. It don't erase the pain & heartache I feel but I can see Ur smile every time I play it. The pain & heartache I feel is only getting stronger & seeing babies is only making it worse. I want U Back darn it. I'd give my Life to take Ur place. I still don't understand y God had to take U. It Hurts knowing U r up there & I'm down here with out U. It's only the 23rd & 3 more days till Ur Monthly passing anniversary. God they Hurt so bad. I do well hiding them from every one. Zack watch over Ur siblings all day every day please & let them feel U. I told them when they feel the wind brush against their cheeks it's U sending them Butterfly Kisses from Heaven. I'm so sad tonight Baby, not sure if I can get my mood to change. My life has been changed forever  that day U passed away in my arms. I keep asking myself Y & I don't have an answer. I'm going thru the what If's & everything replaying different things in my head & it don't change the fact that here it is 1 year & almost 8months later U are still not here with me. U'll be 2 yrs old in 3 months & I don't get to watch U do the normal 2 yr old things. No Birthday parties, nothing cept releasing Balloons, reading Ur letter from me & Ur Birthday card. Crying my eyes out & yet trying to be strong for Ur Big Brother, Big Sisters & the rest of the family. Every one thinks I'm so strong Zack but we both know I'm not. Not many people can really deal with the pain & heartache I'm going thru. Well I better close this My Angel Baby Boy cause I can keep typing my heart out & this'll be really long. I Love You & Miss You More With Every Breathe I Take Zack. Please Know I Love You & Send You HUgs, Kisses & Love each & every day even though it's hard to say it. Sweet Dreams Baby & I'll cya soon. Love Always & Eternally Ur Mommy Maggie. Close